How does one convey the excitement that is felt?

I am in this situation where I am very excited to see someone soon. It may be almost a week away but I seriously cannot wait for her to come back. I am not sad that she is gone but just really happy that she will be coming back and that I get to be back around her. She is definitely a highlight of each day that I see her.

I have been very excited for her while she has been gone. I envy her and I think about her often, all the while hoping that things are going great for her. I miss her smile. I miss our little conversations about nothing in particular. I am most excited to just be around her. To see her everyday again.

I may sound like a sap right now but I cannot help how I feel about this. I have adapted to her being gone but now all I was is to see her and go on trips with her and go to dinner and fall asleep watching a movie. All of these things that people in "normal" relationships get to do all of the time. I want that. I am excited to have that soon.

The problem is that I am not sure how to convey that to her. In case you have not noticed, I am not an overly expressive person. That makes it hard for me to express my excitement for things. This often gets me into trouble when people do not think that I care about what they are saying to me. So, how do I show her how excited I am to see her? I also do not want her to think that I have been pining after her for the last month. I have missed her but my life has been pretty good without her around.

So how do I tell her all of this? More importantly, how do I show her all of this?

I will just be me and she will know.

Time to Unload

I have a lot going on in my mind right now and it is overwhelming me to the point where I need to unload some random thoughts on the world...

Today is harder than yesterday. That is not saying much since yesterday was a great day...

WancaKart may be the best activity I have ever done at a camp...

My mind is on you a lot today...

Did that really just happen?...

I do not always like being left out of the loop...

I hope that no one was hurt...

I am lost in this moment right now...

Each day is different in how I feel about this...

I want to go on a trip with you so bad right now. We should make this happen at the end of summer...

I am so proud of all of the Senior Boys right now...

I'm Not Afraid...

You need to put your shoes on young man...

I really do like my secrets...

Must find a way to make this happen...

That is a cheap ticket. I hope the dates work out right...

I miss you...

Time to Man Up...

Revisiting Goals

At the beginning of May, I set some bold goals. Each one was one that I thought would be possible at that time. A lot has changed since I made those goals. That is not to say that I do not want to accomplish them, the time tables just need to change. My job structure has changed, a new person has come into my life, and I have been unable to run for the last 3 weeks due to a nagging calf injury. Here is an update on where I am at with each of those goals.

• Lose 20 pounds by August - This one was accomplished by the beginning of June. The trick from now on is just maintaining it. I am very proud that I was able to do this.
  
• Run in 3 5ks by October - This one will have to change since I have been unable to run any 5ks since I made this goal. I starting working summer camp and have less free time to run them and this injury is definitely putting me back. I will amend this goal to be Run 1 5k by October.
• Participate in a Triathlon next summer - I believe this one is still doable as long as there not something seriously wrong with my calf. Lets keep this goal for the time being.
• Participate in the 24 hours of Moab within 2 years - Definitely still doable. I am confidant that I can make this happen. I am still looking for interested parties willing to join me on this adventure.
• Find a cause to do this for - I have found my cause. I have decided to do all of this in the name of research for Heart Disease and Cancer. There will be one that will be completely devoted to Transplants as well. The more I thought about it, the more I wanted to do this for these causes as they are affecting me the most and affect the most people in the world.
  

There will always be time for these goals and I am still committed. I also have decided not to create another blog that is devoted to it as this is an extension of who I am. I might as well keep it all together. So all future updates will come through here. I will also eventually put up a place where people can donate and such. Keep coming back for more updates as well as random ramblings on my life.

A New Era of Contentment

I am in a new era of contentment. I am very happy in what I am doing with my life, as well as who am involved with during this time. I am starting to find who I am more and more each day. There is support from all sides while I do this and knowing that makes this so much easier.

I am also in a summer of Inspiration. That is the theme I have chosen for myself and wells those that I work with. How do we inspire? How do we inspire others to inspire others? It is the Pay it Forward concept on a different level. I look for inspiration everywhere and I wonder how it is that I can inspire anyone. I look for a new way to inspire everyday. There are days that are harder than others. Today is one of those days. I am finding it hard to stay awake and motivated right now. I need more sleep.

There is so much to be happy about. So much good in my life. I could try and be vague but there is a certain person that came into my life that really makes it that much better. She is off on a trip now but I am not sad about it. I am excited for her. I miss having her around (though that is much less in the last couple weeks) but she will come back and I look forward to that day. I really didn't expect to connect with her the way that I have. I can't help but say how much I do enjoy her company and the conversations we have.

It is not very often in life that you are able to meet someone and know the connection is there without saying a word. To know that we are on the same page and that very little needs to be said to be understood. She has said that she sees things in me that I thought now one saw. I have always wanted someone to SEE ME. I know she does.

Those are just a few of the reasons for this New Era of Contentment.